I am suprised at how long it took me to find a name. Honestly. You know how most people find a name that they like and go with it early on in life? You know, how people will find something that works for them and they keep using it? They get famous for it? I finally got one that I can use and I don't feel like I'm copying someone anymore. It's strange how good it feels. But that's the thing, it's just a name right? But I think it's more. Perhaps, finding that persona, that real thing to hide behind...Maybe it's something more.

I honestly don't know, nor do I think it's worth the time to find out. I just wonder sometimes, if I had found it sooner, would I be a better person? Would I be happier? Would it change anything at all?

I don't know.

I do know this though. I am Halderis.